I didn’t know then that your heart would break mine, and that i’d be running for something, i couldn’t find. I didn’t know then how nice your face shone in the light, or in my life, all the things youd define. I didn’t understand how keen you were to grow, like weeds in a garden, you … More burn
I put these words in pretty tones, and voice my opinions in poetic silhouettes, because I’m so fucking scared of what this really means.
your pupils like dimes. dark and cold. your heart like mine. weak and old. your skin it shines. porcelain gray. and when its time to go, you never stay.
i remember in our hotel room, black lights, under dark skies, and see you soons. phone calls, i never realized. but you dont come back, when you dont need love, yeah you dont come back, cause im not enough. i say who needs you? who needs you? but too soon again, i say i do, … More veins.
chocolate stained my neck like your lips used to. my guitar split my wrists because the glue didn’t work. im always trying to ask God to help me. and you always flash before my face. and we’re living for never. always sticking our guts in whatever. they don’t care that my knees are scraped, they’re … More chocolate
you smell like cigarettes. tainted with pain. you know my aunt does the same? you say. we ran from the casino, in the bushes, after we stole four packets of jelly each. i took some chew. my aunt does the same you know? trust me.
you. are. everything. i believed in god again when i saw the light streak on your face. i saw your golden skin like hazelnuts, and your blue eyes sparkle under the sun. i heard your voice for the first time. ive never felt so alive. i hated you for not noting me. but i couldnt … More you.
I don’t mind staining my desk with water, even if it means I don’t get to eat dinner with you. I don’t mind saying I love you, even if you don’t seem to hear when I do. I don’t mind having a father, even if he did miss out on more moments than few.
I don’t like to talk about it much, because I feel someone would tell me I was wrong, and I’d believe them.
dear queen, dont you just love the affection. thirst and you crave for their undividing attention. you’ve got seven lined up, and speak blessings to all, as if you are actually afraid, that without them, you’ll fall.
mistake$ 